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by bly wallentine

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062618 01:33
the past is a gilded throne that bears the weight of the corpse of my present vices for decades i've failed to do all the good that i wish that i wanted to do but i don't have the guts or the discipline the past is a violent contagion whose only interest is the destruction of anyone i've ever loved for decades i've endeavored to rid my body of bacterial apathy and guilt but i don't have the wisdom or ability
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guess I'm back on my shit back in this mess i only repent under duress yeah i'm back on my shit flipping my lid oh i thought i'd let go but i never did god's a jealous bitch on the highest horse and i'm full of god's divine discourse you'll never hear the end of this look you're still on your shit still in this mess you demand to be praised love to impress yeah you're still on your shit nothing is better you assert that you try but nothing is better i'm a zealous bitch on the highest horse and i'm full of god's divine discourse you'll never hear the end of this we're petty fucks
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spooky party 02:02
Gonna have a spooky party Gonna have a spooky, fucked up party Gonna kill our neighbors' parents Gonna kill our neighbors' racist parents Gonna build a shrine to Satan Gonna build the cutest shrine to Satan Gonna set some cops on fire Gonna set some shitty cops on fire Gonna watch a scary movie Gonna watch a kind of scary movie We're gonna party in our graves Never get dressed and never shave We're gonna party, but not really That sounds fucking terrible
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Pull me over, Jesus I’m a phallotenic princess And I wear my sins on sleeveless summer gowns Though I used to be naiver, God raised me an unbeliever Jesus, you know me, I can’t let Mother down Pull me over, Jesus What will John think if he sees us With my hands in cuffs, my lips against your ear? All the pastors preach hypnotic that you’re heteroerotic But my lips have turned a million Christians queer Pull me over, Jesus I’m not thirsty for forgiveness I’ll atone for all the shit I love to do And if lipstick gets me damned at least I’ll know I wasn’t scammed Because a god who hates their children can’t be true
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let's go in the garden you'll find something waiting right there where you left it lying upside down when you finally find it you'll see how it's faded the underside is lighter when you turn it around everything stays right where you left it everything stays, but it still changes ever so slightly, daily and nightly in little ways when everything stays
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i admit it i'm living a lie if you can even call this living if this is life i'd rather die and i admit it i borrowed this skin from a terrestrial cadaver in a garbage bin i can't go on like this i can't go on like this i can't go on like this i'm going home on halloween
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Santa doesn't love you anymore In fact he told me I should tell you he hasn't loved you since 2004 That's when you became a misogynistic neckbeard Santa doesn't love you anymore Santa kind of wishes you were dead So he opened up your candy and he poisoned it with lead Hopefully you'll die but if not at least you'll suffer Santa kind of wishes you were dead Honestly, I think that Santa's right It's a shame what you've become, full of bitterness and spite You read some garbage books and became unempathetic Honestly, I think that Santa's right Santa doesn't love you anymore
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It's your birthday, Jesus! Happy birthday! Satan got you something special for your birthday! He knows it's hard to have a birthday on a holiday! You only get half the presents that you would in March or May! CHORUS Satan's giving us back our sins for Christmas! Satan's giving us back our sins! Everone celebrate, everyone celebrate! Satan's giving us back our sins for Christmas! Satan's giving us back our sins! Everyone celebrate, everyone celebrate! It's your big day, Jesus! Let it happen! Satan wants to be the brother that he hasn't been! He knows it's hard to have a birthday on a holiday! You only get half the presents that you would in March or May!
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Every Christmas The Dursleys tell me not to come I don't miss them But it'd be nice to have someone To tell me, Harry Lord Voldemort still hasn't won Let's go to Hogsmeade Get *stupefied* with Viktor Krum It's so lonely here at Hogwarts Even Umbridge has her cats It's so lonely here at Hogwarts When will Hermione and Ron come back Every Christmas, My best friend Hagrid dresses up As a half-giant Santa Swigs butterbeer from the house cup Let's ride a thestral Across the grindylow-infested lake Snog for decades Until the time-turner finally breaks It's so lonely here at Hogwarts. Even Argus has his cat It's so lonely here at Hogwarts. When will Hermione and Ron come back credits
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my shitty <3 02:20
my mind is unwanted my lips are divine my body is haunted my blood isn’t mine i’ve built a wall around my shitty heart i can’t let you in, it’d tear me apart i die around midnight when no one can see and resurrect shrieking and lie about my dreams i’ve built a wall around my shitty heart i can’t let you in, it’d tear me apart i’ve built this fire to burn my shitty heart i can’t let you in, it’d tear me apart
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Winter takes the sting out of me Trims my claws and files down my teeth You thought that I don't give up easily But I've always given up easily In the end we're all tired as hell Cursing God and taking our pills And in the end we'll give up easily We've always given up easily Oh, it's so hard to not let go It's so hard I know
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everyone's sick sick to their bones no one survives everyone's so fucked up by just being alive nothing changes or stays the same nothing gets any better war is clearly a fucked up game it goes on and we let it go on veteran's day worship the brave tools of the throne fuck on a flag shit on a cop spend it alone
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i only ever see the whites of my eyes twenty five years i've lived thousands of lies the grinding of my teeth keeps me from sleep it doesn't matter i'm always asleep i've never felt except when i have i've never not never felt when i cross the street i forget how to street cross i'm so fucked i guess or not i guess my state of mind is of gravest concern i'll be okay but not really ok
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i fell in love with a movie star wrote her a note and i put it in a jar drove to the shore in my parents car watched it sail away hope it finds my movie star i fell in love with a work of prose dear to my heart but it wasn't me it chose and my despair caused me to dispose quickly and discreetly of my work of prose i fell in love with a greco-roman god whispered his name as i gripped his lightning rod he'd twist the fates if i shot his wad i'll never let go of my greco-roman god
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Black lipstick blame my youth Old friends don't want the truth I won't pretend to be the boy I was assigned to be
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I am sick of being sick of being Trimming nails and pissing on the seat I'm weary of my meaningless existence Technically the world is flat, I know But everything feels 2-dimensional I'm weary of my meaningless existence
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i expect more from you i guess i am not impressed i feel sick you are disappointing just like everyone you complain about leave me the fuck alone ok leave me the fuck alone and change
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real things 02:53
real things feel far away most real things are unokay often unreal things seem real it's rare that real things make me feel in the mirror inside my mind priceless clocks and worthless time all of this is unokay both real and unreal okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay
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lie i patient through the witching hour in the floorboards i can hear the depths unsettling pine i latent while i watching over autumn demon introspect a bride unsaddling and i have almost seen this before through the semen and the gore i am awakened by the whimper of a child and i have almost seen this before always semen always gore god is mighty god is meek and god is mild cry i desperate through the still of night for the darkness that consumes my heart is harrowing dry i castrate the unsaddled bride in the darkness i can only feel it happening
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Gonna have a spooky party Gonna have a spooky, fucked up party Gonna kill our neighbors' parents Gonna kill our neighbors' racist parents Gonna build a shrine to Satan Gonna build the cutest shrine to Satan Gonna set some cops on fire Gonna set some shitty cops on fire Gonna watch a scary movie Gonna watch a kind of scary movie We're gonna party in our graves Never get dressed and never shave We're gonna party, but not really That sounds fucking terrible
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